The Tumbling.

I have to say, last week is arguably one of the best I've had in a while. Or at least this weekend was, but I digress.

Everything is just fine! I've never been more excited to hear the word 'negative' in my life! I got my confirmation email and a call from the Doctor, and apparently my labs looked great!

Now all I have to do is keep a close eye on my lymph nodes and make sure they don't swell to even greater proportions...joy.

Have I ever mentioned how much I love the stars? Like, how I'm utterly in love with them? My dream job has always been to be an astrophysicist. However, a certain douche-bag back in high school (and first couple of years of college) never failed to mention how he didn't think I was smart enough for that. Thus, the reason my major is (still) Communications/Psychology. But I mean, seriously, what could be cooler than staring at those phenomenal, fantastical, gaseous things through a telescope all day, and recording/tracking the movements of them and our other planets? Granted, I'm not as familiar with the constellations as I'd like to be, but I've never been more intrigued or in love with something. That whole outer space ordeal is quite marvelous.

Now let me tie this together: up until this semester I've never seen a shooting star. I've taken several astronomy classes, had to keep a couple of star logs, seen Jupiter and Mars through some pretty powerful telescopes, but have never been privileged to see one. I've seen three within the past two months. I saw two on Saturday night.

What was really cool though, was that I was with a pretty swell guy when I saw them. We also saw a satellite that night, which was basically fantastic as well.

The Dread of Night.

Just a few more hours.

It's been almost two weeks since I found out the potential.

They said the doctor would send me the results sometime today.

Have I mentioned how much I hate waiting?

Have I mentioned how freaking terrified I am?

I don't know if I'll ever fall asleep tonight.

Critical Drive

So much has happened. Maybe another bullet point list?

• My family is moving to Florida! I'm finally able to tell everyone (by now, all the important people already know). We'll be living in Melbourne, about 10 minutes or so away from Cocoa Beach! -->
• One of my best friends (and cousins), Joseph Avery, got married. It happened during the long weekend, and everyone decided to drive down to Utah anyway. It was in SLC, and he looked happy, so I can only hope that he will be. I'm very excited for him though, yet at the same time it's crazy to see someone else from The Gang get married. Two of the four kids I spent my whole life with are already married! How long until it's me?! (Strangely enough though, they have been going in order of age. Hopefully that means Ellen is next!)
• For the last two weeks, I've been sticking to a 'food plan.' I've been eating not only better, but in appropriate amounts. I've bought a box of Oreo Poptarts each week (have you ever actually put those things in the toaster? Everything in your life becomes completely irrelevant.), and that's the only source of junk I've had. This past week, I didn't even eat half the box because I wound up sharing with friends. And now that I've established this system of eating, it's easier to not walk to the fridge every time I'm bored, or about to start homework, or am bombarded with feelings. 
• By simply eating less (three meals a day, and 100-200 calorie snacks in between), better, and only exercising twice a week, I've lost 9lbs in two weeks! Think of how much I could loose if I were exercising daily!
• While my parents and family are indeed moving back to Florida, and 10 minutes away from the beach, I think I'm actually going to stay out west for the Fall semester. Either here in Rexburg, or down in Provo by Elena, Ben, and Avery. My roommate Sarah suggested getting an apartment together during that time, and it just made a lot of sense (that, and when I suggested it to my mother, she went on about how much easier it would be if I stayed, haha.). But who knows, yeah? We'll see what happens within the next couple of weeks. 
• These past two weekends have been really fun! And I haven't really done anything incredibly interesting. This weekend was really great: Black Magic, Click Bang Bang, Green Glass Door, The Count of Monte Cristo, watermelon, bbq, and a sleepover. Pretty great. And this next weekend, I've plans to go swimming, and to the dunes! I have really great friends, and things have  been getting so much better.
• But at the same time, I found out something really scary this week. There's a good chance I'm really sick. Like...really sick...(.) I've been waiting on test results for a couple of days, and each one that passes kills me. I've been good about distracting myself during the day (again, I have some pretty amazing friends) and doing what I can to keep myself together...it's just hard to do at night. 
• I have this terrible habit of thinking as I'm trying to fall asleep. And this, thing, just can't leave me alone at night. I've actually lost quite a bit of sleep. I'm just scared, you know?
• But I've also realized a thing or two: there are people that care. There are these amazing people I have, that call and check on me every single day, just as worried as I am and wanting to know just as badly. It's almost annoying, but in reality, I'm so grateful for these select few.  One friend in particular dropped everything on Friday around midnight, to come over and help me through a particularly hard lapse in composure. I didn't even have to ask. It was just one of those "Hey, I'm coming over, don't try and tell me otherwise" situations. She spent the night, and was simply there for me when I needed someone. I've come to realize who some of my true friends are over the course of this week, and I'm so beyond thankful for them.

There are probably a few other things that I'm forgetting, but oh well! I'll have more to write after this next weekend, I'm sure. Later later!